Friday, October 31, 2008

Halloween Night

What a great evening of trick or treating with Jayden, Sara, Sam, my mom, and Joe. My dad stayed at my house to pass out candy...what a team player he is! And yup, Erics still down in Miami. :( I was forced to carve his pumpkin, which by the way, I think came out fabulous!! Im so proud! It was my first and last attempt at it. (Hey those things are hard to do!)

Jayden had refused to touch the "guts" but had a blast playing in them with the scrapper tool. LOL

Since I am dwindling down from the night I will be posting my pictures somtime this weekend once I transfer them from my camera, so for now, these are the ones that came from my phone. I hope everyone had a safe and fun halloween!!!

'Batman ready to fight crime for candy!'

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Another quite night....alone

Well its day/night 2 of a some what empty house. Eric left bright and early at 4:30 am Monday to goto Miami once agian. Hopefully He will be back by Friday for halloween, although in my mind, I am telling myself it will be Sunday, just cuz, thats usaully how my life works it seems. We bought our pumpkin and now Eric wont be here to carve it. Im always so bad at doing that kind of stuff, Ill give the poor pumpkin a hack job. Well at least my sister, niece and parents will be here. We are trick or treating in my neighborhood, and it should be a nice night. Speaking of weather!!! Florida has never felt so great these past few days!! Today it was like 65ish....I love the cold. I even broke out Peanut and Lulas clothes so they will stay warm:

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I remeber this happening when I was pregnant with Jayden. But not until I was around 6/7 months.

I had my first crazy dream about the baby. I dreampt that I went to a doctors appt and come to find out I WAS having twins a boy and girl, well one of the babies was already gone (the girl) and the doctor had taken her out. The boy was fine and healthy so I remained pregnant. It was crazy..I would go more into detail, but its kinda dingy.

I was dead set that I was having a girl this time, but after last nights dream, I'm kinda thinking it was a sign I am having another boy......

Just weird....

Friday, October 24, 2008

Pumpkin time with a nice surprise!!!

Its been a great week having Eric home!! We went to lunch together then on the way home we stopped at the pumpkin patch and got 1 of our2 or 3 pumpkins for halloween. Its a very nice one that as Eric says: "The pumpkin found me!" Hes such a dork. He picked it because it looks like the ones on his computer game that hes crazy about (World of Warcraft) I guess this time of year they have something special going on in the game with the headless horseman and stuff...I have no clue..I just shake my head yes and agree. I hate the game. But anyways, I was trying to get Jayden to pick his own pumpkin out, but he was too excited about all that was around him too really care.

Eric can't wait to carve it, he becomes such a kid this time of year.

O! And something eles that it exciting coming up...Jayden and I are going to be going up north with my mom in a couple weeks. We're going to be staying with my cousin which is great, I won't have to bring any kind of toys for Jayden cuz they have a 4 year old??? I cant remeber but, Im super excited, that everyone will be able to see him, since they last time they did he was only 4 months old. I'm also a little nervous with seeing my grandmother who will be 90 years old. She hasnt been doing to well in lately and her memory is very faint. But I guess thats what happens when you get old.

I remeber when I was in my child years, going up there for a couple weeks at a time during the summer. I always had so much fun, once I got over the fear of being there without my parents. hahaha. And too see her now, where she may not even really know or remeber who I am scares me. I know she doesn't really remeber who Jayden is even though my mom talks about him and stuff. Its gonna be hard when her time comes to cross the rainbow bridge, but I know she will finally be at peace with my grandfather.

Well I think its naptime for me, today and yesterday having been kicking me in the butt with bad dizzy spells and a nauseated feeling :( Until next time.......

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

What a great dinner!!!

I made a lasagna (sp?) for dinner tonight and let me tell you....YUM!!! However, lil man took maybe 2 bites and decided he would rather have mac and cheese. Kids....gotta luv em, I guess.

On another note, check out what just suddenly appeared on me:

Its like *poof* over night here's the belly, I wont get started on what eles has just doubled in size!!! Im only 16 weeks and 4 days along and I'm already the size of a cow! OOO, I can't hardly wait for this baby to get here.

Just wash my mouth out with soap

So last night while I was making dinner, I got side tracked from the instant mash potatos, when I finally realized the water/ milk was boiling over the pot, out slipped the dirty word s*it. And who do you think heard and repeated my words all the way in the other room...Jayden. I couldnt believe it!! This was the second time he has said it. The first time was when we were driving with my mom and she went to go make a turn she was about to miss it and out that word came, with another out-burst from the lil monster in the back!! So I guess I REALLY need to watch my p's and q's.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Todays the day!

So Eric is on his way home FINALLY!!! He should be here in another couple hours!!! Im so excited, except hes was complaining to me last night that he wasn't feeling good and his head was all congested..Great! He comes home sick...Jayden and I just got over our sicknesses.

On a better note...I needed a change over the weekend and decided to have my sister dye my hair..I figured since halloween was right around the corner, I went for red. We even ended up putting a little in my sister, neices and my moms hair!! LOL My moms came out the best because she has lighter hair so it shows through more, but it all looks great!!

Not too bad, right?? My hair has always looked pretty good in shades of red..... Other than playing beauty parlor, my weekend was pretty good. I took Jayden to the park with my sister and neice, then had somewhat of a night out collecting entrances fees for a band that my mom plays in. Then spent the day Sunday at my parents house, just goofing off. It was nice and relaxing, PLUS I was pain free!!!

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Gotta get through one more day!!!

Last update on hubby's return is now Sunday night. So heres to trying to figure out what to do with Jayden on less then 1/4 tank of gas, and .45 cents to my name (if that!)

We met up with my sister and neice at Lettuce Lake park earlier today and had a nice walk around. I must say, thats the most excersize I've had in a week. It was nice not being laid up on the couch in pain unable to care for my son. I know he enjoyed it. So know I am just trying to figure out what to do for the evening, I called one of my friends to see if her and her 2 daughters wanted to come over tonight, but her phone went straight to voice mail, so who knows. I would go see my other friend in Brandon which is a lil drive, but agian....with 1/4 tank of gas and .45 cents to my name, I dont think I would make it. This sucks having no acess to any money and I am going to demand it change when Eric gets home!! :P I was suppose to be going out this evening to help my mom's band collect money for entrance fees, but I have no one to watch Jayden, so out the door that goes.....

Well I think I am gonna go get on and find something to do until Jayden gets up from his nap....

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

A BAD few days

At this very moment, I am finally starting to feel some relief (besides a screaming child standing next to me saying no...I think its nap time) Ever since Sunday, I have been experiencing HORRIBLE abdominal and lower back pain. I was at the emergency room twice since then. After all the needle sticks for blood, a cathater for the ultrasound...which by the way, I would advise anyone to try to avoid that at all possiblities, the numerous doctors, I've seen, they can only say, they think I have a bad case of intigestion (spelling???) or aka heartburn. I think I have maybe gotten 10 hours sleep between Sunday and now. The bad part about all this is, I can't really take anything, because it will harm the baby, BUT they did prescribe a anti-acid to help, I *think* its helping, but who knows, I have been having a hard time eating and drinking anything because, it just grosses me out and I dont want this pain anymore....
My dad, yeah, what can I say, you gotta love him and he means well, but his talks he gives me, just are at the wrong time. This morning, I was doubled over in pain and my dad sit down and all he can say is you need to relax and breath. UMMMM... I've been up since 4 am with this pain, and your trying to tell me to relax!?!?!? I dont understand, but who does sometimes.

Well I guess Jayden and I have once worn out our welcome at my parents house. My mom just came to me and said my dad is having a hard time focusing on work when Jayden cries and he is demanding too much attention from my mom, so I guess I will be heading home when he gets up from his nap and hope that the pain will only lessen from here.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Settling down from the day

Today wasnt so much of a fun day, but I was more productive!!! *yay!* I managed to FINALLY put the what was once clean clothes on my floor away. :P Nah, they're still clean just a tad wrinkled, but the hangers will do there job and let the wrinkles sag their way out (thats what I always seem to think)

I did decided to go over to my sister's house for dinner. I was a little apprehensive with this whole Joe thing going on, but like always, I bit my tounge and just delt with it. I really dont know how to act, I kinda felt like I was invading in his tv room, but o well, Jayden had fun seeing Sara and "auntie" so thats all that matters. O and did I mention? It was a painless evening of putting him down for bed!!! Only because he fell asleep on the way home :P Well I think my day/ night is ending, Im gonna head to bed soon!

Such an uncomfortable day...

All day today, my stomach has been cramping ssssoooo bad...I called the relief doctor, but all she said is it doesnt sound threatning, but I should get seen by my doctor tomorrow, go figure. Well I think Im going to lay down on the couch, my stomach still hurts, Plus Jayden and I are staying at the parents house, so Jayden is taken care of and I can relax. I'll post more soon!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Boredom has REALLY set in!

Ok, so its 1:45 pm here, Jayden is napping and Im about to bash my head into the wall over boredom. My parents have gone to some latin thing down in Ybor then they are going to a bike show. (my own parents have more of a life than their 26 year old daughter!! ugh!) Plus I think I wore out Jayden and I's welcome from being over there all week...I get that sense. O well.

I was so out of my mind last night I started photographing my shadows on my bedroom wall.

Can you tell what it is??!?! It's a "naked" picture of my belly (at 15 weeks) I couldnt get it to focus any better, but I still thought it was kinda neat. Let me remind you, it was close to midnight here. And Im usually in bed by 10 or so when Eric is home.

I spoke to him a little earlier today and he said that one of the guys thats on this job site that is head of the installation department (same company) would like to offer him a job so instead of welding in the shop he would be out and about. The pay would be so much more, but he would also be traveling some. Not sure how much, but seriously, if I have extra money to go do stuff while he is gone, I would have no issues with this. I just told him we would talk about it when he got homeand a serious job offer was laid out on the table.... Well I guess Im going to end this one for right now, wish me luck that I find something productive to do!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Cont. from Fridays confessions I'm cooled down from my prevouse blog...I've been messing around with this stupid site for over an hour now. I really want to go watch a movie, but I find myself getting more and more addicted to this blogging...Its like when you first discover myspace, you just cant steer away from it!! LOL Im turning into such a nerd with Eric still in Miami. Its like I dont know what to do, ihave the computer all to myself. :-P

So if your reading this, obviously you have noticed, what I have figured out to do with changing my background...pretty nifty, huh? Im sure it will be changed agian when I run out of things to do on the computer.... Night, night for now....I think Im going to force myself downstairs to go watch a movie.....................................ok, maybe a few more minuets on the computer! :x heehee

Friday's Confessions.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, IT'S 8pm and JAYDEN IS SOUND ASLEEP!!! This is only because he had no nap today :P I spent the better half of my day at the mall, trying to get Jayden around more kids, but he refused to let go of my leg once we went into the play area, he's so anti-social....
(Sorry I may be jumping around in this blog,
I have alot on my mind and it all want to come out at once...)
I think one thing that is bothering me right now is something I read in one of my sister's post yesterday..let me go and copy and paste it: "I know Joe doesn't care too much for her (meaning me) but he deals with it for me. He won't admit it though. Joe's comment "Well then you can look for the PSP while you're there." WTF did I ever do to him?!?!? So I have been completely boggled by all this, I mean I know he doesnt like Eric and all, but what?? he doesnt like me because Im with him? I just dont understand, My only reasoning for this haterid, is because I openly say my thoughts and feelings on his loser ass of a son he has. How he is Mr. Know-It-All. EEERRGGG!!! I could of punched his lights out the night he kept trying to feed my son jack & coke at dinner, but nnnooooo I played cool (even though I gave him a look that could kill!!!!!) But still, you dont give a 22 month old child alcohol and say "just a little bit, it wont hurt" Um excuse me, who's this boy parent?!?!?!? Last I checked it was ME! Its just like this whole soda thing...I asked him please do not give him soda, what does he do...he gives it to him right in front of me the second I tell him not too, so know thanks to him this is all my friggin' child wants, I just dont understand why he keeps going agianst what I say with Jayden. I mean if his 20?/ 21? year old son, was so super and great, then yes, I could say "you know what, it must be fine, because look at how great your child turned out to be!" Ok so now, Im kinda going off of what is bothering me. Back to that. I was thinking of going over there tonight, Sam invited Jayden and I for dinner, but I turned it down, mainly because of this. I feel like I got to kiss ass, just to keep things calm and Im not about to do that. I love my sister to peices, and just like her post said, I dont have to like her other half, just put up with him for her sake. I feel like the next time I go over there, Im going to be unwelcomed by him. I guess for now its just gonna have to be avoided, which sucks big time, because Jayden absolutly ADORES Sara (my neice). He gets ssoooo happy and giddy everytime he sees a picture of her, its so unreal.
Maybe all this is just my hormones talking but, would it make you feel if you thought everything was fine between you and someone then come to find out, they only put up with you because they have too. Well I guess he doesnt have to put up with it anymore, unless there is a family function and he just hhhaaasss to go, not like he comes to many anyways, golf is more important! uuggghhh there I go agian, with just rattling off. O well, and this stupid accusing someone of taking a friggin' psp is so stupid!! WTF am I gonna do with a toy like that, when I have a computer and a child to play with. If he is ssssooooo friggin' sure I have it, then come to my house and look!! O wait, then he would probably say, well you just hid it good! You know I didn't make such a big deal of him accusing Eric and I of taking this stupid psp up until yesterday. So whatever, i could go on and on about all this non-sense, but I think Im gonna go cool down and rent a movie on demand for the evening.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Weeks almost over....

Well the day is done and night is setting in. My hormones are going crazy and my son is driving me nuts. Props to all the single mothers out there, I don't know how my sister did it...Jayden fights me EVERY night on going to sleep, it used to be so easy, nope thats not how life goes....Im sitting here listening to him cry at his bedroom door. They say consistancy is the key, I dont see it, I can let him stay up until he is about ready to pass out on the floor, and he still fights me. UGH.

Besides all that mess, I really miss Eric, its crazy to hear me say that because if you know us, you would think otherwise. Maybe its just me not wanting to be alone with a child, I don't know. But this whole just Jayden and I thing really sucks. I have no adult or escape time. Agian, he is glued to my hip, even when I take a shower.

I'm thinking of taking him to the zoo tomorrow just so we can get out and about. I really want to take him to ZooBoo, but I dont know how he would handle it, it still might be too much for him.

Well, I dont hear my dear child screaming anymore, my thoughts are he is really tired and gave up easy tonight (LET'S HOPE HE STAYS IN HIS ROOM ALL NIGHT!!!!!) So Im gonna say good-night and start watching my thursday night shows....And as I finish typing this my stupid dog started barking and made him start back up!!! EEERRRGGG!!! Im going to go downstairs harm in letting him cry, right?

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

What a night...

Im sitting here in front of this computer screen and I feel like a zombie. I was up from 10:30pm till around 3am with Jayden trying to throw up. Nothing was coming out except some spit because he had literally threw his whole entire dinner in grandma hand while he was sitting her lap (we had dinner over there). Completely grossed me out and almost made me throw up my own dinner in her hands too. LOL But it was a rough night...Eric left for Miami for work yesterday afternoon (hints the reason why I was there for dinner and probably will be for the rest of the week until he comes home), so the house is completely quite and kinda lonely without him here, But I must say it is kinda nice just being Jayden and I. I guess I have come to realize that we just have a love to hate relationship, I love him to death but gawd he ticks me off alot! :P Well Jayden has crawled under the futon and is stuck, I must go rescue him once agian....

Monday, October 6, 2008

First ultrasound!

Today was such a GREAT day!! I had my first prenatal doctor appointment. I love the doctor, he made me feel very comfortable and I was able to see my 'lil one!!! According to the ultrasound, I am 14 weeks along and my due date is now April 3, 2009. I'm gonna have to do alot of the old remedied to get this baby (agian, HOPEFULLY a girl) to come out sooner, so my sister and neice will see her born!! They leave for Europe on a class trip on my due date....
*Sam- I will hold no resentment if ur gone...I would do it :P LOL

Friday, October 3, 2008

My very first blog :)

Ok....So I was suckered into starting my own blog. Thanks Sam! Well I guess it is a good way to let some steam off without blowing up at Eric a.k.a the boyfriend a.k.a the baby daddy :P

Im sitting here listening to my son, Jayden thrown something and kick the walls because he doesnt want to nap, so its starting to aggrivate me and I cant think! LOL I will say this whole 'stay at home mom' thing, just isnt for me, I would rather be working at a job and getting upset at co-workers than my own child....kinda takes the fun out of being a mother. Specially when, my job NEVER STOPS!!! Even when Im sick..Nope it doesnt matter, Eric gets to come home from a hard days work and relax, what do I do?????? Well I still tend to Jayden, the kid takes showers with me, goes to the bathroom to watch me pee!!! HEAVEN FORBID ERIC plays with him for 15 mins, so I can have some alone time without hearing a 22 month old scream at me because I've unglued him from my hip!!!! His excuse....."All you need to do is tell me." Um, hhheeelllooo, I just told you I was going to take a shower ALONE, you would think, thats code word, for 'Occupy Jayden, while I take a shower by myself....'

Hopefully this weekend, Eric and I will have a date night. WOO HOO NO KID!!! I got around 6 more months to have some what of a sane life, then it all goes up in smoke when the new baby comes. Hears hoping for a lil girl. I've come to realize after having Jayden, boys aren't as fun dressing up as I thought they would. O well.

Well I think thats enough for the first time...Im sure I will be a frequent blogger, so until next time......